song

Linkin park given up

Wake in a sweat again
Another day's been laid to waste
In my disgrace
Stuck in my head again
Feels like I'll never leave this place
There's no escape
I'm my own worst enemy
[chorus]
I've given up
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say
Take this all away
I'm suffocating
Tell me what the fuck is wrong
With me
[end chorus]
I don't know what to take
Thought I was focused but I'm scared
I'm not prepared
I hyperventilate
Looking for help somehow somewhere
And no one cares
I'm my own worst enemy
[chorus]
I've given up
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say
Take this all away
I'm suffocating
Tell me what the fuck is wrong
With me
[end chorus]
[bridge]
Goddddddd!!!!

Linkin Parks song Given Up is what I imagine Jim to be going through internally every day. He wakes up and feels like his time and efforts were a waste because nothing has improved. He feels “disgrace” like he will “never leave this place” and that he’s his “own worst enemy”. I can imagine being that frustrated and wanting to scream “I’ve given up” like this song does. Countless times Jim must wake up and feel this disappointing failure urging him to just give up. Although he probably thinks about it, he never does. He continuously works himself in jobs with awful conditions to provide for his family. He never actually gives up, but you have to imagine he thinks about it.  The line “I’m suffocating” really makes me think of Jim at his job in the mines at the beginning of the book. He would go to those mines and feel the effect of the dangerous elements he breathed in and literally be suffocating. In a more figurative way the frustration he experienced and the pressure to provide for his family made him feel suffocated. “Tell me what the fuck is wrong…. With me” is Jim knowing something is wrong but because he doesn’t know how to improve it he takes all the responsibility onto himself. Instead of taking a break or giving up he blames himself and pushes himself even more to do better. Sometimes through all of his struggle I’m sure he is screaming this song on the inside but carrying on with his daily work.